i love when even though
i’ve blocked my rapist on all social media
he still fucking shows up.
i am constantly triggered by this situation and have been told by people that i’m “faking it” and that i’m “doing it for attention” when i was fucking taken advantage of 6 fucking years ago.
i can’t believe i have to continue speaking of this past the initial conversations.
i don’t use social media nearly as much as my peers.
i have never publicly outed my rapist.
i would NEVER get anything from outing him.
my own FATHER fucking idolized him the last few years of me being in highschool and he still doesn’t even know it happened.
it’s just so infuriating when the all of the people (excluding one) who i was such close friends with that still think i’m fucking lying.
i’m so tired of feeling like this.
and having to defend 16 year old me.
this happened.
it has effected every relationship i’ve had ever since.
i’m forever different.
and he will continue being a shit human being bc i was too scared to do anything about it since everyone told me to not say anything.
honestly
fuck everyone who doesn’t believe me.
stay the fuck away.